Monday, December 8, 2008

Like to Get to Know You Well

Pin It I’ve had several instances where people have sent me the “list these things about yourself” challenges, and while these may be fun at times, I find that they are not really my style…as Jaylee would say, “not my usual blog fodder.”

She is so right.

However, I was listening to a Howard Jones song the other day…perhaps you’ve heard of it. I love this song. Have for years; one of my favorites by him. So I figured that I would like to let you get to know me a little bit more well…but only through Howard.

Good old Howard…



Like to get to know you well…
Really?

Like to get to know you well…
Are you sure?

Like to get to know you well…
Why?

So we can be one, we can be one together…
Well, I guess that works for me. I mean, if you’re really serious about it…

Together we can cast away the fear…
Fears? Well, I will admit that I am afraid of heights…however, when I stand at the brink of a canyon in the desert, I will not hide the fact that I would love to leap off of the edge and have the winds catch me, lifting me to new vistas. Flying would be the ultimate thrill. I would like to one day skydive—probably the closest I’ll ever come to truly flying…or rather, falling with style. I’d probably have a heart attack when I leapt from the plane, but such are the chances one takes when living life.

Together we can wipe away the tear…
The last time I cried—I mean really cried—was when I was asked by a friend of mine to do a photo shoot of a family. I learned that the youngest boy in the family—who was only about 3—had been diagnosed with terminal cancer. About a week after I took their family photos, he died.

Together we can strip down the barriers and be one…
Well, I will have to be honest and admit that I’m not ready to take down all of the barriers quite yet. I mean, I don’t really know you all that well, and would you want all of those protective barriers gone?

Me neither.

Don’t want to talk about the weather…
I know that the weather is a topic we all discuss when there’s nothing else, and the conversation is going nowhere, but I’ll be honest, I really am longing for snow…but only for a week or so, then we can go back to good old summer again. Actually, another few months of autumn would have suited me just fine.

Don’t want to talk about the news…
Most days, I’m pretty far behind the news. I don’t usually watch TV other than a few episodes of this or that which have been released on DVD. There’s a big difference between what you see with and without commercials, you know? I usually find out the news from the people around me…kind of sad when you find out about the recession from a fifth grader…

Just want to get to the real you inside…
The real me inside? Hmmm…now that’s a spooky place. You might just not like what you’ll find in there; after all, locks are put on doors for reasons.

Don’t you think now is the time, we should be feeling?
Right now I’m feeling pretty well…a bit tired, but nonetheless well. I do like my job, my current ‘status’ in life, and with Christmas around the corner, it’s kind of difficult to feel cheerless. I do have to admit that “Deep Inside of Me” by Jericho Road always gets me feeling something as does “Little Wonders” by Rob Thomas.

Just want to simply say, won’t let you slip away…
Yes, now there is a word of thanks which needs to be spoken aloud…thanks for returning to my blog day after day—I’ll be honest, I love to read over your comments; and whilst I know that there remains many a lurker out there who chooses not to make themselves known, I appreciate your coming back from time to time. It makes me believe that I have something worthwhile to say every now and again…that, or you’re really bored and in desperate need of reading material. But whatever the reason, thanks for many a return.

People want to talk about the future…
I am not sure where my future will take me. There are so many possibilities out there. I’d be comfortable in saying that I’m not quite ready to move schools again…and I absolutely love my house so that is out of the option world for just a bit longer. I think I’ll just plan on making it to Christmas break, and then see what direction the wind is blowing from there.

Don’t want to linger on the past…
There is a bit too much in the past to talk about, however, I will blog about some of the better stuff from time to time. My dad would call them, “Rocking chair memories.” Aptly named, wouldn’t you say?

Just want to reach to the real you inside…
Didn’t we talk about what a scary place this is already?

Forget cold glances and rejections…
While I’ve gotten better at this, I still allow them to bother me from time to time…why? Not sure, really. Probably just because there’s something about feeling low sometimes which appeals to that dark side in each of us…those days when we just don’t get dressed, walk around in pajamas, and eat five bowls of cold cereal just because we don’t really care.

Leave the things that separate…
These are various and sundry items, to be sure which do this. Far too many to mention in a blog post which is not all on its own.

Build on a trust that we can stand on…
I usually find that when I trust someone, I really trust them unless they destroy it. Unfortunately, this has happened more times than I’d like to mention…good thing for cold cereal and pajamas.

Finding all are insecure…
I have noticed that many people I encounter from day to day are pretty insecure about this, that, or the other. I’m amazed just how often we can ‘fake it’ and appear that this is not the case at all. We are truly master performers.

Opening the same door…
I do tend to make the same mistakes more than once. Chalk that one up to human nature…or stupidity…whichever is more convenient or believable.

Leaving out a stubborn pride…
Ah, that stubborn pride issue.

Seeing from another side…
I love the song, “This Side” by Nickel Creek. It’s all about the foreignness of being in one place and not the other. There are times when I am in the other place because it’s where I belong. To quote Nickel Creek:

“You dream of colors that have never been made,
You imagine songs that have never been played.
They will try to buy you and your mind.
Only the curious have something to find.”

Sometimes the other side is where find I need to be.

Well, that’s it for this post. While some may argue that they really didn’t get to know me all that well, just remember, “No One is to Blame.”

6 comments:

mywest said...

Together we can cast away the fears.
Together we can wipe away the tears.
Cut to the core of this, your dad knows best!
Lift you wings and learn to trust the power you have within.

Love, DAD

jayniemoon said...

Jason,
I've had a great time catching up on some of your posts. Glad to see you're doing so well! I love the Christmas card--we did a bunk one last year with a 70's picture--I'll have to show you sometime. Thanks for finding me so I can keep up with you a bit more!

Anonymous said...

I liked it!
I always like what you post!
I still have days of pajama's and cold cereal...they just go well together, don't they!?
KJ

Kris said...

Wow mywest you said that so well! Jason I love your PJ moments and thanks for sharing them. I wish I could have a few. And I hope you can trust your aunt. I really hope you will fly someday!

ComedySportz Utah said...

That insecure section sounds like a Ralph Waldo Emerson quote:

I have noticed that many people I encounter from day to day are pretty insecure about this, that, or the other. I’m amazed just how often we can ‘fake it’ and appear that this is not the case at all. We are truly master performers.

Amay-za-zing!

-Craig

Gerb said...

These posts can be awkward to write but it's a good way for others to get to know you well. I learned some new things about you and could relate to quite a bit! Thanks for sharing some about the real you inside.

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